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As you might already know, In a ton of peoples eyes i am seen as some kind of abuser or manipulative ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ because of my ex, because of this i have been completely extradited from all the social circles in the GMod community, this is of course expected when you never got to hear the full side of the story and where fed a bunch of ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ from someone who manipulates others into getting their own way.

Some people in the GMod community would like you to believe that I am some almighty ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ who is only out to intimidate these people because apparently i'm such a horrid person. when this is not the case.

for too long these people have continually told and spread information just to not just publicly destroy me, but to actually cripple me as a person and destroy what little pride i have in myself left.. because of them i suffer with serious anxiety issues and have been diagnosed with a type of PSTD, which seems quite extreme. but hopefully i can help you to understand why this has happened to me.

as you might already know, I FORMERLY dated a person called Ms. Sny, she and I broke up around the end of 2018 when she became infatuated with another man, now this isn't the issue at hand, but good on ya.

the main reason this is being brought up because behind the scenes she continually tormented me with the "if i wasn't with you i would date them" line, which any normal person who dates another would become extremely sceptical of this persons loyalty to the relationship.

this wasn't the first time she did this, a detail she gladly likes to ignore just to push her narrative that i became controlling and abusive towards the end of the relationship. she even claims that i caused her to need psychiatric therapy at the end of the relationship.

the entire reason of my ANXIETY is because this event was NOT the first time she did this,

March 2016 - Event One, (Fake Break)

back in 2016, around the month of March, a couple weeks after an incident we both refer to as "that Sunday" where she manipulated me into removing one of my closest friends at the time under the false guise that "he wanted to date me and was begging to have a chance with me" this lead to me removing him for over THREE years, (yes hello Jace). she suddenly out out of the blue broke up with me telling me she needed time to figure herself out because she felt mentally drained, week later she got back with me saying she had her time away from me and she was ready to continue,

It was only a year later that she confessed to me in a call that the reason she had that break is because she was trying it on with a guy she liked at her current high school, and that she was "sorry" afterwards.

August 2017 - Event Two, (DecimusValor)

It then swung full circle a year later when she met someone on Roblox by the name of Decimus, this event occurred around the time of the release of "Middle Earth - Shadow of War" a game i became very interested in at the time. (just for a little understanding of the time-frame if i am a bit off with the dates)

It first began as a normal friendship between the two, which i was very happy for and tried my hardest to get involved in the activities that they undetook, such as Roblox star wars lightsaber duels and such on some sith map, however i soon came to notice that she was getting increasingly angry at me over something she never cared to explain, it was only later on when she said that she "would date Decimus" and me finding out Decimus had been slyly flirting with her and she responding to his flirts with "cutesy" gestures back.

I then took action on confronting them both when playing "Wolfenstein - New Order" where she then told me to ♥♥♥♥ off and die after i told her she is a liar and a cheater. she then ran off with Decimus for the day. it was only after i started becoming increasingly vocal about this issue that she came back and tried apologising. this was with a call with ZetaBetaTheAlpha, SuperVario64 and NitrousTech.

I tried to be reasonable and accepted her apology for the second time.

December 2018 - The Straw that broke the camels back (Dunkle)

This event was the finale that lead up to my apparent exile from the gmod community and all my "friends" turning on me.

Through a former friend, MrThShadowon, she met Dunkle, who she instantly had a connection too.
however i just carried on with life and just ignored any kind of issues that i might of had with her flirting with the guy, mainly because i had just had enough at that point, however when it began again with the constant taunt of "i like him, i would get with him if i wasn't with you"

this reminder made me become very anxious at the fact that i could once again loose someone whom i dearly cared about.

then it happened, she broke up with me and not even a week later got with dunkle after i tried my best to talk to someone about the warning signals that i saw, this person being shane toon, who in his almighty ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ wisdom just ♥♥♥♥♥♥ me off and told everyone i was really upsetting him, which lead to everyone in the Part Dous gang unfriending me on the spot.

this action drove me into a seriously bad breakdown, as not only where all my so called friends turning on me, my "best friend" shadowon decided to ♥♥♥♥ me off after i said that it felt like he was trying to appease others for social brownie points.

so then i ♥♥♥♥♥♥ off for a while, trying to keep telling people that something was really wrong about the whole situation, only to be ♥♥♥♥♥♥ off and ignored by them under the pretence that i did something, something despicable which later came out to me.

apparently a couple months later, i found out that sny took the lowblow at trying to destroy my reputation in the community, she claimed i had mentally abused her. however till this day she claims she never said this, even though shadow told me via a third party that she herself said that i abused her, and thats why he hates me.

which she has no merit to stand on because everyone around me, those whom i was close to and sill close to till this day, know i am NOT in any way that kind of individual, I MIGHT BE AN ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥, but i am no abuser. i can accept my flaws. but i will never accept such a malicious lie.

NitrousTech - will vouch for me
Gautier / Jace - Will vouch for me
Ally - Will vouch for me,
Scorpack - Will vouch for me
Solaris - Will vouch for me
Frankovic - Will vouch for me
Sargon Richtofen - Will vouch for me

I might be a imperfect ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥, whom has done a lot of wrong in his life. BUT I AM NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON, taking advantage of someone mentally is despicable, and not only that, downright goes against my very morals as a human,

i know i'm a Greedy, Cynical, Mean, Very Blunt and harsh individual, i can accept those flaws and improve on myself to become a better human,

but in no way shape or form would or will i "abuse" another human, I've already been beaten, strangled, stabbed and left for dead so many times, to let myself stoop to such a barbaric unprincipled level. would be the end of my entire life because i pride myself on my morality.

for all those who want to ignore this and continue calling me such names and continue to run from this issue, you all need to grow up. decent humanity should allow you to come to peace and try resolve this issue so that everyone can move on and not feel like they have been left to die in a ditch,

STOP LYING AND ADMIT THAT YOU DID THIS, THEN GET THE HELL OUT OF MY SIGHT.