i fell apart and took my mind with me
i have been barely sustaining
my pain just marinating
i fell apart and took my mind with me
just a ghost cloaked in lies with a broken spine
fell apart and took my mind with me
just an unrecognizable creature, caught under an avalanche
fell apart and took my mind with me
my presence unnerving, i'm a shadow always lurking
surrounded by death
even the towel rack reminds me of the handles pallbearers grip tightly on the way out of church
what they use to lift you up into the back of that hearse
i see a woman tighten grip on her purse
can’t be offended, she doesn't know my intentions
she imagines the worst
around here, the conditions severe
around here, you tightrope between detachment and fear
between the shattered fragments of existence that collapse and appear
never changes, just exacerbates depression deeper year after year
pain weaving in, pain weaving out
heartworms, sharp turns, sparse words, scars, burns
i spent a long time dying, don't wake me up yet
public executions, you’ll never see me upset
force-fed myself with blow, but now i settle for sedatives
no longer in the streets, i belong in the crevices
positively negative, popular i've never been
hard to be a person when you lack the mental requisites
emotionally deficit, consumed with all the wretchedness
not optimist or pessimist, my politics are in exodus
spouting countless fountains out while drowning in the brine
my life's the foulest algorithm science can't define
they trap you in these systems that are phallic in design
because they ♥♥♥♥ you in the mind
boy, they ♥♥♥♥ you all the time
i fell apart and took my mind with me
being strung up at the ligaments with cultural derivatives
fell apart and took my mind with me
pronounced dead by a nemesis, a doubt without a benefit
i fell apart and took my mind with me
just a cluster of atoms thrust deep in a chasm
i feel apart, and now your mind is with me
smoke in your eyes, the world's a joke in disguise