with what time left i want' do something i think is valuable. once deceased, nihilistically confident, it doesn't matter what one has done, or what one has accomplished in life — a pathetic excuse for temporary dignity. but for the short moment of actually being here, i want to grasp the paradox of existence, called sisyphus by those conform. i do not want to waste a life of serving corporate labor, sisyphus i call it, because no value is to gain here. value, for me, is in understanding what is not understood, thus inaccessible. and that is why i don't seem to care, as perceived by those around me.

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⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Our posturings, our imagined self importance.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀The delusion we have some privileged position in universe
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ are challenged by this point of pale light.
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀Our planet is a lonely speck in the great inveloping cosmic dark.
⠀⠀⠀⠀In our obscurity, in all this vastness there is no end that help would come from elsewhere
⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀- to save us from ourselves.
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⠀⠀it is said we all grow up one time, hence it pains if u really don't but be left behind soon to fail life.

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