I can't find a word to describe my feelings right now, I hated you for how bad you treated me back then but I love you for the fact you care about me until now.
I hate you because you opened that door, it cut your life short. But I still love you because I know you were willing to give more than take.
I hate you for leaving me so soon. But despite that I hope you can wait for me, for your family to join you. You can go on without us if you want, we'll join you soon so no worries about that mom.
And if you really wanna go first, I hope whatever that's waiting for you would be always sunshine and happiness, I would trade my life for it if I had to.
Bye, mom.

See you soon, mom