every cs game reminds me of her

the spot where she aced

body blocked the defuse
died so i could live

the time we rushed mid on mirage
she flashed forward

we got the entries

she had 3 HP left

we laughed for 5 minutes

"worth" she said
it was

just spent 3 hours re-watching our old vods

our laughter
our comms
our synergy

just KNEW

watched us go 14-2 in a session
watched us build something that felt permanent

then i turned it off

sat in the dark

staring at the black screen

just me

realizing i'm watching MEMORIES

the games are over
the duo is over
she's gone

and i'm just sitting here

rewinding moments

queue popped while i was zoned out

solo queue

accepted it

loaded in

mirage

alone

just me and a random
they're not HER
they'll never be HER

they throw the same flash where SHE saved me

i backed off

couldn't do it
couldn't fight there without HER

random typed "?"

they don't understand
they weren't THERE

every game is a reminder

of what i had

and what i lost

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