I think, therefore I am

Hello, my name is Matt. No not really, it's an online alias.

I love roller coasters. I draw, I listen to music, I play a lot of videogames, although I'm not very good at playing them.
I get bored easily, I get stressed easily, I get angry easily. None of these are positive traits but I can safely say that I want to at least be a somewhat decent human being.
I am extremely self aware to the point that I can't actually trick myself into doing anything because I know I'm trying to trick myself.
I have a tendency to repeat jokes and cling on to things that in the long term don't matter at all.
I am horribly inconsistent and always getting myself into scenarios that I never wanted to get into in the first place and I say things that later get completely disproven by...myself. I am lowkey very stupid
I am also dangerously introverted and have the worst social anxiety and it prevents me from asking even the most basic questions or to even ask any questions to begin with and just sit quietly.
I am a sad, lonely and downright deplorable individual who is trying his best to understand the world around him even if it pisses everyone else off in the process, which is something that I try not to do.

I hope you learned a little something about me and I hope that you are someone who is someone that might actually be willing to try and talk to me. However scared and confused I may be.