I’m sorry for everything I’ve done. I did a lot of horrible things and while back during those moments, everything felt so complex and overwhelming and scary, it doesn’t make what happened okay. But these last four years of my life while having been extremely turbulent, have also been some of the happiest. I’m so thankful to have met you all. You really helped me become a better person and you will all mean the world to me forever. I’m sorry my past mistakes ended up being too much and I’m sorry that I had still been doing things that were hurting people without knowing it. But I’m still happy that at the end you all gave me so much love, more than I had ever deserved. You all made me who I was today and I’m sorry I didn’t learn enough faster and still caused a lot of pain. You all helped me so much, and this will probably end up being good for me, i dont know. I mean, i was still hurting people and i didnt even know it. I'll miss you all and I hope you can at least look back and think of the good times and not just of all this when you think of me. You guys had become my whole life and I'll miss you all so much. If there was a way i could earn your forgiveness, i would do it in a heartbeat. I have no clue what I'm going to do or where I'm going to go, I honestly can't imagine my life without you all. There's so much more I wish i could say, but I can't think of any way to phrase it all and I'm sure it would be better to leave it unsaid maybe. I’m so happy to have met all of you and I’m so sorry it had to end like this, i just dont have the guts for it all. I love you all so much and im so so sorry. You're all wonderful people and I hope life treats you well.

- Judy