Counterstrike NEO is better than Apex Legens

""I... I was awake all the time.. I didn't sleep.. I turned of overwatch and panicked to an extreme.. my whole body shaking. I stated punching myself... forcing myself to puke.. I started cutting my thighs again.. and I cut a spot and it wouldn't stop. Bleeding.. i opened the door went outside and started screaming.. after a while I forced myself back in my room where I hyperventilated till i passed out and became unconscious""