'25
*solves practical problems*
(I feel my sins crawling across my back.)
Right now, work is my focus. "The work is mysterious and important." - Severance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aF4N-qSHbT4
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'26
I WISH I could chill. Steam, I WISH I could log into you and just vibe. Gods I wish I could play Wildermyth (like in general) or join my old pals in Minecraft. Maybe the last one once The Work is concluded, but... I cannot. Because...

I FIGURED IT OUT, I FINALLY FIGURED IT OUT, our predecessors were encoding this EXACT THING, basal impulses channel through emotional reservoirs into action-fuses up all the way through thought-trees to our highest Aspirational Selves and it's that TREE DIAGRAM THING I've been rediscovering without realizing it [1]. OUR PREDECESSORS WERE JUST TRYING TO COMPARTMENTALIZE THEIR THOUGHTS [2] AND FEELINGS AND ACTIONS AND IMPULSES ONLY THEY DIDN'T HAVE TECHNOLOGY AND COMPUTER SYSTEMS-THINKING. OMG. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥. *DUH.* BLARRGGG

("Spirituality" seems largely to do with humanity trying to encode its own cognitive longtail.)

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sefirot (...of course I know this one from yugioh lmao)
[2] https://aebperspective.com/2015/09/25/avatar-the-last-airbender-episode-39-chakras-explanation/

and we imprint, IMPRINT the strategy-fuses that Worked For Us Before on our Emotions because that's JUST how our subconscious and unconscious memories work; only LOCALISED subnets might validate insecure strategy-fuses and by the time we make it out to the OCEAN people are SYSTEMICALLY like "yeah that doesn't fly" noting abnormality and it's like DEEPER AND DEEPER points of RAM/ROM only NOTHING is read-only in a cognitive neural network, ANYTHING can be redefined which is WHY someone's BELIEF-SYSTEM is closer to the base of everything as it determines WHICH neurons they're convinced can be rewired and it AFFEC-


(The boy went on and on; his stomach wrasslin' with the painful, painful thought-string "nothing I can ever say or do will ever make it right again." The knowledge that he was hated in a direction of the universe from which he sought nothing more than approval, validation, head-pats)

HUMANS *ARE* SYSTEMS, REALITIES *ARE* ENCODABLE
I FIGURED IT OUT

(Part 2 excised for time and because I devolve into a sobbing mess lmao)
here internet have this sweet sweet jam
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERo-sPa1a5g

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farewell, Badass Mofo. If a human who presses on against anything and creates their works and is cute and blobby but only around those they feel safe around and cries joyous tears some IDIOT can't see were that and maybe gets a l'il angy and frustrated when said IDIOT is doing and saying idiot-things instead of being present with them, exists on another continent...

Then they still have much more value than they feel or believe. In their ideals of peace and work, in the care they put towards the critters they love. I wish they could see themselves the way I see them, theirs is the beating heart of this world, and I...

v_v'

I charge you to keep them safe. :') I loved them, stranger, before I learned how to love.
Fare thee well.