i can't belive it's already been one year... i love you man

Hi, all this is john, nathans dad. Just fyi I did take over nathans account on steam, so as you said T3CHsupport yes its been longet than that.. its been 142 days since he left us. I miss him so much, i know we all do. :|

I feel tortured when It says you were on 13 days ago... but it's been so much longer... I will never see that blue online sign again... and it tears me apart man.

Man Nathan... Missing you a lot any time I ever get on Steam. Regrets of not accepting your game requests cross my mind everytime I see your name on my account. When I went into your room I balled my eyes out remembering the times we would stay up until 5 am playing together. I can't believe you're gone man. I really do hope you found the peace that you earned. Love ya cousin.

I Didn't know you for so long, we played games just a few times but we were still friends!
i remember our friendly and funny chats and gaming hours, it was so great to have found a new friend who is like me i fought, i don't know what to say... i can't belive you are dead!
I wish i could bring you back... but i can't... obviusly, but still... i miss you man.
in your next life, make sure to find all of us.
Rip - Nathan 1996-2016

even tho i did not know Nathan that well he will be with us for a long time to come. i know i was not a good friend towards him but i wish i could have made things better yours truely
Kai Moore (SoulFox)

My son I miss you so much. Words cannot express the heartache I have been feeling since you left us. I know you are at peace now, but I will miss the late night chats we had, late night games we played. I'm going to miss hearing you breath hard into mic everytime you got excited. I will remember how we stormed through the jungles to conquer the romans so you could have their wine in Civ. I will miss the alarms blaring and you running by in commandos trying to escape and laughing cause it was so funny to see. I miss you so much buddy. My heart breaks over and over each day, I have never felt this kind of pain before. I love you so much Nathan, I miss you so much. I am sorry for the times that I was not online and maybe you needed a friend to talk to or play a game. Thank you taking the chance again and opening up communication with me in December, I know we had a rough road but I love and miss you so much Son. I Love you nathan, nate-dog, upperworlder.... Love you so so much

Love,
Dad

Nathan, there are no words I can put here that will ever match up to how I feel over your death, the warmth of the sun offers no form of comfort over the soiled land that has become your resting place. It is not within my right to judge your actions on what you deem is right or wrong, nor would it be proper to remember and cherish the time I was able to spend with you online. I must say this though: I truly wished we had been able to complete Diablo III, I know this is silly to say this now because well... I mean I would have liked, loved* even if we had been able to beat the game, to know that well, we came all this way and handed those demonspawn their asses on a pike or vice versa. But let us not let this setback cause us to never meet again. After all, I have yet to properly make your acquiantence. I look forward to that day, but for now, rest well knowing that the time you spent here was not wasted, but in fact, fulfilled tenfold.

An Ambitious Soul In A Cruel World~ By Christian Castillo a tribute to Nathan Spade/Upperworlder

“An Ambitious soul ever so spiteful of the world's existence,Consumed by society’s vigorous toxins, devoured by its darkness, You had an heart made of stone but that did not compare to pain you endure foretold by the world, An ambitious soul you deserve better then the bridges you crossed, i hope that you walk along side the forever beach side with that someone you always wished for, An Ambitious Soul through blood no resembles nevertheless brothers we are shall we stand again as we did before Together I’m sorry,But ill meet you in the end“
Rest Silently...I hope that your thoughts treat you better then reality did.
R.I.P My Friend 6/16/16
~Yours Truly Christian I wait till we meet again

Nathan Spade/Upperworlder 1996-2016,The world repays those of goodwill's with tragic endings.