Hi there,

If you came onto my profile, it probably means you're a friend I played with and are checking in (or are just a random creep - which I hope isn't the case), and I reckon this message is for you.

If I haven't logged on in more than a month, there is probably a good chance I took my own life. Why? How? When? I can't answer the latter two unfortunately, but I can do so for the first..

I met my soulmate, https://v1.steam.hlxgame.cc/id/fwitt , married her and life was perfect. We were separated by distance, both of us on opposite ends of the world. I lost her in the summer of 2025, and trying to find a reason to continue has been... futile. I don't know what I am supposed to do, nor do I see any reason or meaning to continue.
It feels odd going off in my 20s - it seemed like I had dreams of being a professor, a divemaster, owning a sailboat, starting a happy family and more. All those seems like a distant dream now...

Maybe someday someone will tell the story of how two souls separated by distance had everything set up against them, tried their hardest, but ultimately failed. Maybe no one will ever remember us or our story. We'd be gone then, we'll never know.

I go now, to the unknown. I am afraid, but I also need to do it to see her one more time. My other half.

Signing off permanently,
Raiyan Dansson