gage from a long time ago was here XD

Ok... this is a long shot but... Looking for a dad.
I have a problem and I dunno if this is a place to put it... I don't know if there is any other place for it so here goes.Things are all going wrong for me recently: Broke up with girlfriend, lost my part-time job, failing at school. I felt so depressed I even considered suicide. But then I realized there's something I have really wanted all my life as I was growing up and I must experience it before I leave this world. That is fatherly love...
The father figure in my imagination is a masculine white male probably between the age of 35 ~ 50? But I'm not racist so other ethnics might do.This is not a hoax or trap and I am not looking for anything financially from anyone. I just want some emotional support before I decide whether to end my life or not.If you think you might be interested, you can email me for my picture(i'm not ugly) sdfklj@hotmail.com
Thanks for reading this long and stupid post, I just thought it's worth a try...

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