When I got the news of your passing, it hit me harder than I expected even if we hadn't talked in a few years. I was honestly upset and confused. In that moment of anger, I reacted by removing you, and I’ve thought about that a lot since. I couldn’t understand why you would go through something like that without reaching out, without saying anything. Part of me was hurt, part of me was angry, and a big part of me just didn’t know how to process it.

But looking back now, I regret that reaction. I wish I had responded with more understanding, even if I didn’t fully get it. The truth is I hate that things ended the way they did.

I keep thinking back randomly about the times we would play with Lena, and I would remember you. I wish you had felt like you could reach out, like you didn’t have to carry everything on your own.

Wherever you are, I hope you’ve found some kind of peace.

Rest in peace Lyad.

Rest in Peace brother. you will be missed.

-rep gay

SO GOD DANG KAWAII UGUU (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

we should try french kiss sometime XD