i really miss you

This is how I am finding out you are gone. all these months, I've been messaging you in the hopes that maybe you were just in the hospital again. You were a light alex. thank you for being my friend.

Faced with the dreadful “last seen online,”
I picture your beaming smile.
We were just kids, 14 years old,
geeking out over art, politics, and philosophy.

Across worlds,
we watched each other grow.
You saw me. I saw you,
every layer, every version of ourselves.

You’re still a light with gravity.
Closer to my heart than most.

Now, in the April of your timelines,
I write:

“Until we meet again.”

i miss you

rest in peace paz. i wish i had talked to u more.

rip my goat. i love ya