i heard the child outside today (months later) say to the dog

"come here boy. do you wanna die??"

in what he thinks is a sweet voice

trying to give him a bone because he'd heard me tell his mother it can kill them

the dog utterly ignored him because all he'd ever done when he was his was beat him

like everyone charged with "caring" for the dog ever did: and worse


when the dog was first given me year and a half ago i caught him having given him a 6 inch metal slap bracelet in his mouth, trying to explain it could cut him

now i understand he full well understood

and this is the evil of the parents poured out also on the children

5 And the LORD descended in the cloud, and stood with him there, and proclaimed the name of the LORD.

6 And the LORD passed by before him, and proclaimed, The LORD, The LORD God, merciful and gracious, longsuffering, and abundant in goodness and truth,

7 Keeping mercy for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, and that will by no means clear the guilty; visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children, and upon the children's children, unto the third and to the fourth generation.

8 And Moses made haste, and bowed his head toward the earth, and worshipped.

i gave the girl another gift, not costing me anything:

indeed it would have gone to waste, something i'd bought a year ago

forgot about, and left in a drawer


but she did indeed say thx


maybe she said it last time too honestly it's possible i'm not sure


what i am sure is i repent of my judgements

and i pray to receive Mercy, and not judgement myself

i've re-installed steam just to leave these last few comments each time i left them

otherwise i have no reason to be here until my game is finished (to advertise it)

concerning the comments below i had to point out also i think i was mistaken once


when i was given some chicken i think it was from the man not the woman

this is a small thing, but also not, because even 1 good thing i want to acknowledge it


also youtube showed me a video of why when a nurse breaks the little glass to get the medicine and uses a syringe why it's safe, why the glass doesn't get into the syringe (they say..)

w/e, doesn't apply to me, i will die before they stick any more needles in me

i have not been to a "doctor" since i was young and stupid

this video is not shown because of me, but the man next door

also youtube showed a short last night saying

"what to do when you're declared terminal"

saying what to do when you have 3 months left


this video has nothing to do with me, but is because of the man next door,

skinny, idk if it's "cancer" or "aids" or what, but the gay man is dying

i cried, but also it is a good thing, that him and his family would be removed from the earth

if they will not repent,

each one is heart-breaking, each one is the walking dead


i have never done anything to any of them but treat them as friends

now they all look away from me, except the girl will still speak,

totally unaware of herself or her transgression against me

(i forgive them all completely..)

in a comment below i said of one of the man's two boys,

"the one who is obviously gay",

but i don't think either of them act that way often, but both have mannerisms:

but i am not gay, but looking at me as a child i think i had some of those same ways about me


because now i see that every direction every angle is pressing (hard) for them to become that way

the demons who rule earth, the devil, and the broken "men" in charge of the world,
and the women happy to turn a blind eye,

i happen to be exceptionally resistant to the world, as God has made me

not everyone is like me:

i also fell to the demons and devil in the world, and it is by The Grace of God i am made clean

now most in the world don't stumble, but fall completely, never to seek to regain their feet

but always everyday cursing The Way Of Truth


anyways, as i came to leave this comment, i also had to wake sloppy from more nightmares

i am sure at least one probably both of those kids (and for sure their father) put some of those divets in his head


and for the worse that was done to him read below, the starvation literally almost unto death so the puppy was malformed but forced to wear a heavy vest so all his growth was only in his front forearms

sick sh!t and that has nothing to do with the kids

but as for the kids they will become adults in all likelihood at least one of them worse than their parents

that is the one i pray for and give love to and think maybe instead he will become a champion like me

i pray for all of them for everybody but that worst one could also become the best

i see that in him a greatness which right now he suffers greatly to possess

anyways i told him i loved him

when he sees me now he always has his head down

he does indeed feel remorse

and me too, for saying he was consumed with hate (which i also already apologized for below)

but anyways i just wanted to leave this and say this, it was on my "concience"

meaning, The Holy Spirit of God was convicting me to come here and say and tell the truth

that the little man is suffering under hardship which is almost impossible to endure

and i was a relief to him but hid myself from him suddenly without reason

he had every reason to be upset

his over-lashing out is understandable: as i said: he lives in an impossible situation

and yet God is with all of us and will hold all of our hands thru everything

just as i held the little man's hand

God has been holding mine, and also it is true

God has sent angels to watch all of them (the children)

and watch over them they indeed do

for the which i thanked my brothers (the angels serving God)

after ofc thanking God first

for healing me, and helping me to see clearly (thanking God for this)

but thanking Him and also the angels doing their service to Him,

in protecting the kids, against hatred and misjudgement, very much also from me


they can harm me i will love them (that's the whole family each 1 individually)

and i prayed to God it comes to be

they give Glory to God because of my actions

and therefore i am happy :)

it is really very easy to be overcome with hate

it blinds you and makes you insane


then if by God's Grace you see clearly, there is little more embarrassing

than the things it has brought on


the hatred makes you see that which is not true

but Love will open your eyes and your heart

even my own situation simply trying to live became like chess

and i was in check and boxed in, but even so, because of neglect suddenly,

even i myself am partly to blame for his (the 7 year old child's) lashing out


any outsider could try to excuse me and say i did more than my part


but i know better that is a child of God who needed help


what kind of man am i if i will not put myself in peril

for the help of a little brother

the child below i said was consumed with hate i do not think is consumed with hate

but is totally undisciplined: worse, uneven, un-tempered, irrational, inconsistent punishment

at random seemingly it must be to his mind, in some regards

in others he knows what he does, which is why he always looks down when walking past me


but hopefully now can cheer up a little at least because i do forgive and love him


but his lashing out and acting out is indeed because of a lack of needed attention

and also because of being unable to express himself

and he is done wrong constantly by the world around him

we all are, but his situation at home is extremely difficult


i'm confident now some of the wounds on sloppy are from him, but will you blame him then?

or his father?


who knows what his father endured as well?


the answer is to overcome, and take up our cross in love of our brothers, and follow after Him

as you see in this comment section it says 123456...67

but before i left the comment directly below, it said


123456...66

but i abandoned the hate irl, and it went away here as well

no more 666 in my heart and soul and mind, and therefore it goes away from the screen as well

and below i spoke without love

and the mother spoken of below i just gave her a gift because she asked me for it


and again she didn't say the words thank you but she was thankful that is obvious


and like me she did say sorry to me on behalf of her mother instantly without hesitation

i say like me because i will surely say "i'm sorry" if i believe myself to be wrong

and so did the girl


and the man also did never directly harm me

so i was consumed with hate in my speech below


and God just corrected me again

i also said to the little man within a few hours ago "i still love you little bro"


i had her bring him to the door because he always put his head down when he walk by

i wanted him to understand i don't hate him


and i don't hate any of them and i get it and i understand

but for the grace of God there go i


i will not judge, but i will love, and help

and take up my cross, and follow after Him

there is an utter thanklessness in the child as well

and his mother

and his father i watched it bring almost physical pain to him

saying "thanks" to me once


when he'd asked for some more (free) weed and i'd given him


you must understand


i know the pain a man feels to ask another man for a thing, and am exceedingly sensitive to it

i respond with patience & kindness, and will not bring that issue or aspect to light


i will give quietly, never expecting a thank you,


in fact having given many times that was the only "thanks" i received from anyone in that family before or after


i guess that's why i remember

and how comically difficult it was for him to say it



this profane arrogance without reason or justification

rotting the hearts and minds and souls of men (humans)


i am so tired of those lost within it forcing me to babysit them..

i hear less than 0.00000000000000001% of what other people say i keep to myself always

going outside i heard that nasty old wh0r3 woman mentioned below say

"he called me a n!gger!" (on the phone to someone)




her grandson last night when i went out to take a dab i heard him saying something like

"pop pop pop pop get hit in the head" something like that


then i heard the 5 year old girl his little sister (i know all their voices i know the whole family)

she cried out "nooaaahhhhhh!!!!!" that's his name


because he'd hit her and hurt her, but instead of what is normal in that situation


to call for mom or dad, she just said his name crying for him to stop (he will never..)


because the mother will do nothing, nor the grandmother, and the father is often gone seeking 8===D

(not as if he is some type of good father when he is there)

as the bible tells you, "spare the rod, spoil the child"

because of the safe space satan has created for his children in earth,

because of a complete and total lack of discipline and accountability,

(there is far, far more i could say here, about all of this, i end early for conciseness i guess)

(if i told you the extent of all this child did you would be very shocked)

despite being a poor 7 year old black kid in america,

this child is developing a mentality reminiscent of king joffrey from game of thrones

i can't say for sure he's consumed with hate


but acting out for help is what i want to say

but when i look at all the evidences


i am required again to say that is what i actually believe


the little man has demons and is a demon


and it is clearly true God punishes the children of the wicked after them

i don't allow myself to hate him

and struggle to love him


i really do try to


but the man's wickedest son after him (well we will see there are more upcoming one is 3)

but the little evil kid is about 7 i think

was 6 when i met him i guess


i used to think a child that age would not be knowingly so wicked

or rather would be shaken and shocked and woken up at any of the things this kid does


but he just continues on and is worse each day

consumed already by HATE!

and he is about 7 i think


i didn't think such things were possible

a young r@pist and murderer, child of a grown r@pist and murderer is who lives next door

concering the pit-bull God rescued into my hands and has kept safe here

the one mentioned at length below


(a ways below)


it is not just the man who abused him

but his wicked sons after him


the blatantly gay one probably less abusive than the monster the other one is


but i know they both beat him

the little monster one gave the dog a 6 inch sharp metal ruler in his mouth thru the fence when i first got him

but now i understand the burn mark on his face i think was him, and who knows what other torments


his worst nightmares and most violent shakings are usually when those kids first get home from school


around perhaps 3


the poor creature was left starving, tied up couldn't move,

is insanely sweet trying to be kind and show his belly

and just tortured


this is who the pit and the lake of fire is for

and heaven is for me and my doggies

by God's Grace towards us ^@^

there is an other thing these fake thugs and their women do

like the nasty tattooed 49 year old grandma wh0re next door


which is when they fail to abuse you via the "street"

because they are actually cowards, and weak


then they cry to satan's beast system

and threaten you with police



real gangsters' and real thugs' grandmas do not call the police


but the man nicknamed "scooter" (this is not a thug's nickname..)

who sucks 8===D

his girl and her grandma


these are the type of "thugs" who call police..

Leviticus 26:8

God testified of me and those like me, saying that 5 of me will chase 100 of you,

and 100 of us will put 10,000 to flight


pretend thugs and gangsters, cowards


that is what the "strongest" of you are





..but for now we live patiently day by day, in the safe space your daddy satan lucifer created for you, as you prance about freely and happily, literally with your asses in the air

"thugs" sucking 8==D, and your women..


forcing yourselves and your will onto anyone unfortunate enough to come into contact with you

raging in hatred and seething and scheming from the shadows whenever you encounter one stronger who resists your repeated attempts of r@pe

*why do i have to put @ in some of my words

truth does not need protection by censorship: lies, and liars do


you are lucky to read words such as these, for this is The LORD at work thru me,

but the night is coming when no man can work,

soon

and i will rejoice when they can no longer behold me,

but any who can will first see my God's Name, and The Name of The City to which i belong


The Name of The Father

The Name of The City of God

The Name of The Son


written on my forhead, to lead before me, the way He led before them in the desert,

in a pillar of cloud by day, and a pillar of fire by night!

and she's also angry having been able to have zero effect in her pathetic attempts to entice me


the younger (much, much younger) (actually hot..) women who come around there also could not


but she should be able to, right?

the delusions of the wicked are astounding, and unending, and insane

by God's Grace there is Grace upon me

so i will not live by the sword


they recognize that in me, the weak, fake, pretend to be's

like the 49 year old grandma that acts like she's 13

(and i mean the worst 13 year old you could ever know..)


and so they desperately want to try me


but we aren't just a little bit stronger


it is The Grace of God that stands us up

as men were burned alive in fire so hot that some of those kindling the flames died,


yet these men lived, walking about in the flames and talking with an Angel,


so also do those of us who follow The LORD GOD JESUS Christ exist within the torments and attacks of the wicked

they WILL impose their will upon you, God be damned, you be damned, everyone be damned, "we don't give a fk"

we WILL impose our will on you


this is what they think


..in their minds calling "thugs" to help in their "bullying" of you, in this case, the old woman trying to call the man for help to harm me, unaware the man is already shook and terrified

..little thugs sucking 8===D playing with guns are not strong men, for the reader to know

this is a thing you should understand:

..poodles bark loudly


many pit-bulls never bark at all.

they will transgress against God, and against you

they will actively harm you, be in the process of attempting to harm you,

and look at you genuinely perplexed, as if you are insane, if you put your arm out to block them,


if you dare actually stiffen the arm to prevent them,

they begin to shriek, and rage, and charge at you all the more violently

i am compelled to come type here again

i absolutely marvel at the thanklessness of the family next to me right now

not just the man, or the woman, the kids (at least the boys),

the grandmother being besides the man the most wicked


you can give to someone a gift

and give again

be transgrassed on by them time and again, forgive them


give them more gifts


in their minds at the end you still owe them

you stand even with them at best but really they look down on you


you never deserve anything from them

they deserve everything from you


you could give to them forever, at the end, it's like you gave nothing,

and in an instant, their "love" is turned to hate

there's a 4th meaning also which i have been adhering to religiously,
for this is from God

i take 1 hit (1)and wait for (4)two hours (2)zero exceptions.. (0)

now this command might seem in contradiction with the first 20 minute rule:
it actually is not, but is a supplementary command

it was given after, later, after i am more healed, and as such, i have never had to fall back onto this meaning from the first 1420 meaning i received,

which is"take 1 hit and wait for 20 minutes"
(to see if i want another hit immediately)

if i ever had the desire, i can still do that,
and the 2 hour timer in between hits would begin at the exhale of the second hit which i took to be satisfied

but as He has healed me to this point i never need any extra:
also every time i take a dab now it's a significantly smaller amount

very reasonable small dabs:
so now i just micro-dose whiskey and mini-dose the weed,
and i am happy

(i've never had any problem with whiskey or alcohol, except just for drinking too much at once a few times when i was young, but i've never been dependent on it, and indeed often go months at a time with none)

God speaks to me many ways:

once, while walking to buy groceries i saw a bus with the number 420

and indeed despite having no way to get any He provided cannabis for me that day


things like this from Him are unending, and always: not once or many times, but constant

in at least some form i experience things like this many times a day, everyday



a license plate i see everyday has the numbers 1420 on it

i saw it so much and so often it's become a surety inside of my soul, this number i know it is from Him, Him helping me

so far i have discerned at least 3 distinct meanings

the first thing every day (1) for (4) two(2) hours, i do not smoke, with zero(0) exception

no more "wake-n-bake"

as i type i have only been awake 30 mins and took a dab 5 mins ago

today i realized this third meaning, which i typed first for you, and will obey from now on


the second meaning is this:

one day a week i do not smoke, as it is the sabbath, (1)

and for 4 hours and 20 minutes before it begins, i do not smoke, to avoid
"being high" on the sabbath (420)


the third meaning is this:

this was the first i understood it to mean:

the first step down from heavy heavy overuse and heavy decades long over-dependancy

take 1 hit (1)

then wait for (4)

twenty minutes (20)


(this gives the hit time to settle in, like the way you might eat only 1/2 a burger and stop, in the hopes you feel full after it "hits" your stomach, and you no longer want the second half)

as a brother who loves you

i have a message for everyone who has struggled with over-use of cannabis
(or will ever struggle with it)


if you smoke 1/2 as much

you'll get twice as high

and enjoy it twice as much too


try it and see :)






but the truth is even more than that honestly: i say it that way to have a nice saying

1/2 as much = twice as high


but really i'll use 1/4th as much and get 1/2 as high but enjoy it 10 times more

in speaking of me any of these can only say good things,
unless they blatantly make up complete lies


this is the truth of the situation, and the reality

today the next day i was shown just so clearly

who they all are

i mean i already knew all of this exactly, could see it all raging on the surface and did all i could to avoid it entirely

but with them forcing themselves into my presence it was just confirmed over again what i already knew

i was not confused: i know if one pours water on an object it becomes wet
i know conversation with the damned is pointless

so suffice it to say, that in speaking of them below i did indeed speak correctly

i believe:

but i will say this at the end

in the way that a person can only shake their head

for the wicked are unrepentant and it doesn't change


so much so that any good you do is always unthanked,

and you are always intruded upon by them,

and they will always violently oppose any sort of instruction,


so that you cannot look at them and find one good thing: not even 1


but i can still love them (from a distance: greater everyday by God's Grace..)

in pity: seeing what becomes of fallen man who clings to this world and the flesh


it is not just the woman or the man
(she comes first today for i had to interact with them not him)

her mother is the same as her

..her children, all but the youngest too young to tell:

they are children of their parents

i may or may not ever elaborate on this

but in the comments below i had given myself over to hate

of the man who had given me his old pit bull, and his girl


but tonight again The LORD corrected me

and i remind you


to love,

and forgive,


because there is no other way


and anything else is insane

once when i was 17

i had an extra window air-conditioner

because we had just installed central ac


so i asked my girl if she knew anyone who needed it

she said her dad

i met him an old redneck with other rednecks drinking whiskey

living in an old house missing 1/2 the house (like when you went past the kitchen, there was no roof, and there was just outside..


it was quite the spectacle


the man had a strong redneck accent, and we smoked some weed,
and i gave him the ac


because despite my (sexy.....) gf had been molested many times

her dad never touched her (i know: because i asked..)


hence i gave him the ac

also, the girl i was with when i was 21-25

her father was a good dad, would NEVER touch her,

her mom a good mom.


i left these truths in contradiction to the totality of the comment below


..not all men are gay, some men are men of God, like me...

every man is gay

and every man sleeps with his daughters


every woman thinks her dad was a tough strong man

and looks down on other men, men infinitely superior to their fathers


their minds are broken, and they are wicked, and arrogant beyond measure

as their queer fathers who fornicated with them, thinking about 8===D as they did it



you can read this and get angry, i really don't care


100% of you are going to burn in hell, and then the lake of fire forever



you have taken from me and those like me all you can


when God takes everything from you, you will understand


we babysat you in the earth


withstood your evil patiently


as you did whatever you want


you're going to God's Prison now


and for that, everyone who loves what is good will thank Him forever

The Author of The Bible speaks thru me sometimes

that's why sometimes my words sound like The Bible


God, The Holy Spirit is The Author of The Bible


and He is also my Teacher, and Best Friend

vanity has defeated all men

it is what caused every fallen angel to fall


everyone wants to feel like they are in control of themselves,

steady, and secure


but the way a balloon will lift into the air at the slightest breeze,

so a puff of vanity will dethrone a man, and cast him face first into the ground


beware of vanity, and overcome it


the enemy's strongest weapon against you is your vanity


he will torture if it will lead you away from God


but first, he will coddle you,

and entice you,

and subjugate you to himself,

by "lifting you up"

by stroking your ego, your vanity


what i said in the past, in my vulgarity:

by jacking off your brain 8==D


i almost didn't even repeat it

but see the difference


how i no longer speak this way


these are the changes that The LORD has made

my LORD and Creator is God

The LORD JESUS is The Spoken Word of God


of course, by necessity, and logic,

it is obviously true,

The One who speaks is greater than the spoken thing:

my LORD Himself said: "My Father is greater than me."



The Son of God, Creator of all which exists, The LORD JESUS,

is The Spoken Word of God

The Image of The Unseen God


that is who He is

below i said everything is "bs" and fake in this poisoned world

and only the bible is true


i marveled aloud and said to God "it is quite the charade being perpetrated on the earth"


so then i had to look up the word since i said it to God, to be sure of what it meant

and it was this



cha·rade
/SHəˈrād/
noun
an absurd pretense intended to create a pleasant or respectable appearance.





indeed:

this world is an absurd pretense of goodness, whilst doing evil


and eventually, they will behead those as myself,

whilst coddling each other and telling each other how "good" they are for doing it

concerning the comment directly below, about "linda mcmahon"

i watched a bit more and see like with hilary clinton this woman is an open wh0re for demons

they may come and go as they please

it hovers around her and haunts her thru the speech


but at the beginning in the first 12 seconds it is very clear to see

the change from 12-17 seconds is actually astounding


i've shown other places eyes glowing and more obvious demon possession
or eyes gone totally black

but outside of obvious super-natural physical manifestations like that


it doesn't get much more obvious than this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sxs4EkngiEU

satan lucifer (or some other fallen angel) speaks to you on camera

for about 12 seconds


see the insanity and strange gaze of a demon


yes, for 12 seconds it speaks, using her voice, not it's own

rather, not "his" own, for all fallen angels are men: gay men, yes, but men


at about 17 seconds it's joy wears off, has faded away,

and you're left with the cold old woman talking


..there's a reason they are called unclean spirits


the woman could be smearing dung on her face and eating it

live on camera


this would be far less offensive, and disgusting

in game on the official small tribes servers i play

i leave signs in game saying that if anyone doubts the truth and validity of The Bible


to please ask me about it in chat


since i cannot do that for you here, dear reader, i will advise you this way


100% of everything else you will see and experience in earth is bs


lies and fake


then, by contrast, you will be able to recognize the difference, and The Truth

of The Bible


remember:

Bible means "books"

Holy means "reserved, set apart, place"


taken together, these 2 words, "Holy Bible", mean:


books that are different from all other books

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NbNPBcUgDTs

i didn't even watch this video above

i put it here because youtube showed me it

"Brian Cox" the queer who loves co"x"


telling you about myriad nonsense things which do not exist


these are your enemies, devils, like "neil degrass tyson" who loves little boys

and you can see his mouth puckered from the sucking he's done


no i am not foul or offensive for revealing these truths


these truths are foul and offensive, and so are you,

pretending you're now some type of victim for being told?


none of their names are real, nothing any of them say or do is true


the more i speak the more their lies fall apart

as shadows flee from light


there is a reason all they can do is murder and censor and silence those as myself


but the harder truth is pressed down, the more it rises..

i only watched seconds of the video linked below

don't bother drudging thru it


if you want something worthwhile to read the entirety of


read The Holy Bible

https://youtu.be/TeaD1btQdY8?t=113

@1:53 she shows a comment from ai gp saying

"this is absolutely horrific! everything is ai."




lol.

i say again,

as occasionally i still see an old post bumped up after someone found it thru search


in reading (any) of my words on steam forums


please be aware the queer "men" with their gay mod boyfriends have selectively removed countless comments


in the vain, pathetic, desperate attempt to dissuade from the truth


that they might make my words seem incomplete, incorrect, out of context..



devils, and fools


not 1 is taken from my LORD's hand by force