just a random 3am almost four years later and i was thinking about you man. you were one of the first friends i ever made on the internet and i miss you every day. i dont know what kind of person i would be without the support you gave me. every year since you've passed i've always cracked open a can of irn bru for you on your birthday, since you said it was your favorite. I'll never forget you brother. All those fun times we had, all the memories we made as stupid teenagers roleplaying and playing videogames without a care in the world. You always told me: "I'm sorry I can't relate, you carry such a heavy burden." but in the end, you were the one left with the heaviest weight of them all, and you smiled through it, to the bitter end. Rest in Peace. I'll visit you when I get the chance.

I'm really sorry I was a massive ♥♥♥♥ to you, Crashy. I know that I wasn't the most mature person when we were still friends. In hindsight, you were just trying to be nice, trying to be a friend and strike up a casual conversation.

Me being the socially-inept idiot, I acted like a total prick to you and ended up removing you in 2018 because I thought you were annoying.

I've learned a lot since then. How to treat other people. How to behave socially. How to talk to people. Seeing what happened, I am really sad that I can't show any of that to you.

I'm sorry.

Oh. I was going through some posts of some of my former friends in the past and only just now learned that, well...you're gone.

♥♥♥♥, that stings. You were the first ever friend I made in the Neptunia fandom when I got into it back in 2015 because we both played TF2 as well, so we had a mutual interest, and now you mean to tell me you're...gone?

God. I sincerely hope you're in a better place now, man. It's been years since we last talked and I guess we'll never get the pleasure of doing so ever again, huh?

Rest in peace Crashy.
I wish I had found out sooner. I really do.

23rd of December 2021... I still miss you man. I'm just happy you made it to 21, and.. the logs you left in our server about your recovery process will never be forgotten. We miss you, I really hope you're in a better place

Alright Jamie, I'm going to break my heart and soul even more with this:

May God guide you to a better place, of where all your suffering and torment be washed clean.

May you see the gates of heaven, for they welcome you readily.

The angels shall sing as you step foot upon the holy land of the afterlife.

May you find your destiny of uniting with the fair Neptune, for she await your hand.

Rest in peace Jamie.

December 13th 2000- ??? 2022