I was trying to be present for a while but i cant. Please Acey how do you not see bottom feeding garbage and why let them win :( theres a version of me that only exists with you & just with science im the better partner. I'm sorry. I want to make you happy. I want to fix this please. I need my best friend. I swear on everything I will make it right. Please stop doing this to me bc for the first time I thought someone was going to stay bc u promised & i asked u if u were talking to anyone to not be a bottom feeder pos like everyone else and u still loved me for me and im sorry they ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ruined that but I wanna go back and not let anyone do that to me again with the actual chance of you not engaging in any actual conversation with losers please I told you I was uncomfortable I wasnt insecure i really ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ hate them I never felt like i had to chase you until I could see what they were trying to do and they really really took advantage of my mental and I want you to come back and let me make up for it and actually apologize I love you acey im sorry im sorry i rushed into things I never wanted to love bomb u are who I seek theres no running from that. I will forgive you for everything i saw please just come back & do whats right.

If ur not acey what are you doing here?

I love you Acey

i hope ur still my best friend forever

im sorry i couldnt pull myself together

if i can manage to stay sober would u ever let me over
I know it may be hard to do but I have the compass, please let me come back to you.
Sorry that i keep breaking down but my body is bruised beat and torn down
ive been assaulted cheated manipulated and raped
its beyond just asking for an escape
I dont even hardly eat my food
Enslaved to a system where I can't even visit you
& everyday without you feels like life is just on loop
nothing ever ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ changes but my body wearing tearing or growing older
i just need you to put your head on my shoulder
i still don't know what it ever meant to have to fall in love again
because the way i love you i couldn't bare to exist
U are the love of my life if you come back i promise to make things right :(
Please dont leave me by my lonesome I dont wanna keep growing up if not with you
You changed my life to a different shade of blue & my hope to love still will always be with you

I wanna make meals for u I wanna clean for you I wanna take u places I wanna take pictures with you relax with you laugh with you smile with you I will love you right this time and forever i promise I will do so much better and I will still be naughty in love but more i will be sober we will get healthy and fit i want it to be you :( i dont want to die like this i dont want to die not being able to pick myself back up from this i want to live a healthy life for myself but with you please acey I seriously need my ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ best friend around please im reading books on discipline ive been cleaning up and im going back to the gym i dont want to ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ give up because I know the weight of it but im really here for you. You are my reason my twin flame. I wanted ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ fly out and give you this ring as a promise and thats what drives me insane I let u chose everything acey u said it was me im ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ sorry