im so despondent about evrrything, it goes wrong everytime. theres no escape from rhis hell ive created in my head. im drained. so far in life i havent found anything close to a real pourpose. sometimes im afraid to get out of bed in the morning, theres nothing to get up for. ive been giving up ever since i was 10. im unambitious. im weak. i never follow through with anything. im fake, my personality was crafted, im nothing and no one. if things are too hard i give up. if things take too long i give up. i keep doing and doing it over and over.