ripping my skin like moss
tearing my flesh apart like play-dough
feeling clean was never a choice
I wanna break my nose to the left with a brick
break my skull open with a safety hatchet
stab my eyes with sewing needles
so I can enjoy the burning sensation till the end
cut my lips so you can't unsee my beautiful smile
reduce my bones to crumble one by one whilst my mutilated flesh rots and my tears dry
kill me and make it painful
I want my last moments on earth to be the worst
for the numbness to never have time to settle