My parents loved me, but now they are homophobic and hate me
I don't even know them

I wanted to be a nice guy, someone everybody likes
I tried

My friends are nice, but they should be more loyal to me
They aren't

Should I be more loyal to my friends?
I'm trying

My loved one never existed
...

The pain in my heart is unbearable
It feels like I’m bleeding everywhere

I feel so empty that my empathy is gone
Dead inside

I dislike myself to this point, if I could, I would change my body into a killing machine
I can't

Can demons appear and tear my soul apart to the point where my soul would no longer exists?
Demons don't exist

I will lie for my entire life, saying that I will be killed by the brain cancer
It's a lie

I wanted to be a pretty girl, a girl who loves anybody
I'm not girl, and nobody loves me...

If I kill myself, would anyone notice?
...

Was I a good person after all...
...