https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5QetiyNCfz8

its out despite me having 2 jobs and being a full time college student, epic win

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcPwZJW8xcM

heres the premire link, waiting to post it until 8 so more can see it because i finished it at like 9pm. Theres not much editing its just a quick video explaining it, kinda like a live commentary.

(a quick warning, VNN has been known to spread miss information in the past so take the game being "on hold" as you will)

the lack of substantial content provided to us as a community the last 2 years has made me legitimately depressed. This is a game that has given me countless experiences and got me to actually to talk to people as i was afraid to in school (still am to be honest). And with me having actual depression, this semi-confirmation that the games on hold for what we could assume indefinitely, really breaks my motivation even more to think about making content again. Because its not that I do it for the views or even to my fans but as a homage to the game and to try and make it the best possible version i could make it to be. That's why my videos centered around community problems with the exceptions of my funny moment montage videos. (there was like one or 2 click-bait videos that i made as a kid because i was view hungry back then). So I really don't know if i can confidently say that i will comeback, i really do wanna because i've gotten a handful of comments saying that i disappeared and that some even miss my content which i would never even expect people to remember me. Just imagine staying around for something that you've loved since your childhood to see it die because of neglect. Now this is neglect for some fair reasons however you cannot say that they could've done better with the management of TF2, as valve started as a games company and not a company company. They fueled passion projects and that yielded such amazing and wonderful titles, but now after that success they don't know how to keep supporting those games, to build off of them. And after all of that text dump you would assume i would like to see a new installment in the TF series but no, i don't. I feel this game should be left with dignity and be known as a classic. Trying to recreate the feel for this game is like finding a nail in a hay stack, and you bet no one wants to go on such a tough path to be successful on.

So, Am i saying this is the end? No.
Will I make videos again? possibly but my depression is breeding such a lack of motivation that its even hard some days to just get through. there's nothing im passionate about anymore, and i don't see a future in my life. I see others achieving so much with so much energy and i compare it to my lazy ass who does nothing but well nothing. also i would like to make it clear that i am not suicidal. These are just my feelings that 'ive had pent up for the past 2 years, as my social anxiety has prevented me from doing so.

Thank you to anyone whose read this whole word vomit, ill promise not to do it again.

TL;DR : TF2 being put on hold, has made me question if i would want to consider starting back up and what i've been feeling in my absence.

and the people who did abuse it get to trade their first unusual they unboxed so that is for sure a grug moment

gone CRAB RAVE