Mine's more materialistic really, so it may come off as shallow to anyone that doesn't understand.

But earlier this year, I found my at-home music studio destroyed by a flash flood. My drums, my guitars, my basses, my mics, my amps, my effects pedals, all destroyed and unable to be salvaged. That was where I'd go to release my emotions whenever my reality was getting the best of me, tens of thousands of dollars, down the drain.

The flash flood itself isn't what damaged it, the water from the flood tried working its way into the local sewers and they were so backed up that poop water came up at least six feet on my whole block and multiple other streets. We tried suing the city in a class action lawsuit, but their lawyers successfully managed to get it swept under the rug. If I was just a little bit more crazy, that would've been my Ted K / Killdozer character arch.

Thankfully my girlfriend (God, I love her so much) bought me a $500 Orange Super Crush 100 guitar amp for Christmas because I told her some time ago I was contemplating just giving up on music, but she knew that I'd be incomplete without it and didn't want that to happen. It definitely made up for my awful year.

Originally posted by vuxuanvie:

I've been an easy-going person and that's the reason why my friends sometimes just teasing me too much. I always have to hold my anger all the times that happened.

Sorry to hear that you endure teasing from your friends. I have dealt with being the butt of every joke from my family myself, so I get it.

Originally posted by luciferous:

earlier this year, I found my at-home music studio destroyed by a flash flood.

Thankfully my girlfriend (God, I love her so much) bought me a $500 Orange Super Crush 100 guitar amp for Christmas because I told her some time ago I was contemplating just giving up on music, but she knew that I'd be incomplete without it and didn't want that to happen. It definitely made up for my awful year.

I am sorry to hear that you've lost so much in a flood, but that is very sweet of your girlfriend to give you that gift.

One of my biggest challenges is having a family and in-laws who don't seem to care about me. Additionally, I struggle with PTSD and intense anxiety stemming from the loss of my mom to her fight with depression many years back, which means I need to take anti-anxiety medication.

Originally posted by xAlphaStarOmegax:

Originally posted by vuxuanvie:

I've been an easy-going person and that's the reason why my friends sometimes just teasing me too much. I always have to hold my anger all the times that happened.

Sorry to hear that you endure teasing from your friends. I have dealt with being the butt of every joke from my family myself, so I get it.

Originally posted by luciferous:

earlier this year, I found my at-home music studio destroyed by a flash flood.

Thankfully my girlfriend (God, I love her so much) bought me a $500 Orange Super Crush 100 guitar amp for Christmas because I told her some time ago I was contemplating just giving up on music, but she knew that I'd be incomplete without it and didn't want that to happen. It definitely made up for my awful year.

I am sorry to hear that you've lost so much in a flood, but that is very sweet of your girlfriend to give you that gift.

One of my biggest challenges is having a family and in-laws who don't seem to care about me. Additionally, I struggle with PTSD and intense anxiety stemming from the loss of my mom to her fight with depression many years back, which means I need to take anti-anxiety medication.

I also happen to have PTSD. It's rough. Hope you're doing well, friend.

Originally posted by luciferous:

I also happen to have PTSD. It's rough. Hope you're doing well, friend.

It is been difficult, but I am doing my best to persevere. I hope you are doing well yourself.

Posting from a homeless shelter with my laptop.

i got engaged very young, and like most engagements at a young and stupid age it broke. it took a long time afterwards to be happy again, but im a lot better in recent years.

anything that has ever made my life meaningful is gone and there's nothing i can do about it. i have gone from being a quality student to a dumb college dropout. i don't even know why i bother staying alive, honestly.

I tolerate too much as I fear my wrath

Every day was hard. I don't know if I've just gotten used to it or what.

Camera work, the printing of it hasn't happened. The filing for each state it is from Original to cropped and so forth isn't coming along safely.

Originally posted by vuxuanvie:

Just be honest, don't make a joke, go straight to the point. If you having a hard time right now, then it's a chance for you to share your thought to everyone so they can help you.

I've been an easy-going person and that's the reason why my friends sometimes just teasing me too much. I always have to hold my anger all the times that happened. I'm writing this not because I only want to share about my thoughts, but also to help people around to get over the obstacles they faced.

Half Man Half Machine and now there is something outside of that not sure how to be 150% more myself.


All honest. There was no sing n song dialogue attached on. crunch berries, that did though.

Poisoned at work. Doctors didnt do ♥♥♥♥, but tell me nothing was wrong and Id be ok. Well spoiler, 170/110 resting blood pressure while your heart is beating at 60 beats per minute, is not ok.

What do you do when the doctors refuse to do anything but give you blood pressure medication which does nothing to alleviate the irregular heartbeats.

Spend 9 months begging for a holter, only to show a hundred pvc's, but they dont understand I can feel every single one and they wreck me.

A doctor finally gives me betablockers to control the irregular heart rythyms. Here I am 6 years later, suffering from parathyroidism which may be from acquired fanconi from the chemicals I worked with. See a woman suffering from almost the same thing asking for maid aka euthanasia, except in her 8 years she had 3 parathyroid's removed. I am fighting to even get tests done to figure out what the ♥♥♥♥ is going on.

Are any of you guys doctors in canada who specialize in work injuries? What about any of you who are lawyers who will work for the piddly 10k im prolly owed.

When I tried to go the lawyers years ago they told me there wasnt enough money in the case for them to care, simple as that, and besides there would be no way to really prove it was the chemicals that did it to me.

I dont know man, I hope the world burns. I dont give a ♥♥♥♥ if anyone believes me and the last thing I want is people feeling sorry for me.

But ill be damned if I ever trust a government worker again, that is a promise.

Better to die homeless and alone, ive already accepted it. Im so tired that I just dont care anymore.

All of life is a hard time, and everything is hard, all the time.

Originally posted by Nülliflower:

anything that has ever made my life meaningful is gone and there's nothing i can do about it. i have gone from being a quality student to a dumb college dropout. i don't even know why i bother staying alive, honestly.

Many of the most brilliant minds in history did not follow the straight path.
https://www.cracked.com/article_18822_5-famous-scientists-dismissed-as-morons-in-their-time.html

Always remember why you started, and let that be the fuel that keeps you going when the path gets hard.

Originally posted by peon:

Poisoned at work. Doctors didnt do ♥♥♥♥, but tell me nothing was wrong and Id be ok. Well spoiler, 170/110 resting blood pressure while your heart is beating at 60 beats per minute, is not ok.

What do you do when the doctors refuse to do anything but give you blood pressure medication which does nothing to alleviate the irregular heartbeats.

Spend 9 months begging for a holter, only to show a hundred pvc's, but they dont understand I can feel every single one and they wreck me.

A doctor finally gives me betablockers to control the irregular heart rythyms. Here I am 6 years later, suffering from parathyroidism which may be from acquired fanconi from the chemicals I worked with. See a woman suffering from almost the same thing asking for maid aka euthanasia, except in her 8 years she had 3 parathyroid's removed. I am fighting to even get tests done to figure out what the ♥♥♥♥ is going on.

Are any of you guys doctors in canada who specialize in work injuries? What about any of you who are lawyers who will work for the piddly 10k im prolly owed.

When I tried to go the lawyers years ago they told me there wasnt enough money in the case for them to care, simple as that, and besides there would be no way to really prove it was the chemicals that did it to me.

I dont know man, I hope the world burns. I dont give a ♥♥♥♥ if anyone believes me and the last thing I want is people feeling sorry for me.

But ill be damned if I ever trust a government worker again, that is a promise.

Better to die homeless and alone, ive already accepted it. Im so tired that I just dont care anymore.

I am sorry you have gone through so much.

I understand how frightening palpitations can be; I recently suffered from them myself. I get much less now that I take a lot of vitamin C (sodium ascorbate), heart-healthy vitamins, and some lugols. I had a strange day where my heart rate spiked to 250+, which was terrifying because it felt like my heart was literally beating out of my chest. Doctors examined my halter, which I had to wear for 14 days and for which my partner had paid $400 or more out of pocket, and concluded that nothing was wrong. My partner also spent hundreds of dollars on additional tests, which also confirmed that my heart was healthy. So I never really found out what was wrong.

Anyway, I hope you figure out what is going on and find a cure.

im happier than ever which is what actually matters,

Let the jealous ones burst with envy!